Wednesday, December 12, 2007

The Unknown.....

A steep slope is before me with freshly packed powder. The air is crisp, the view breathtaking, yet I cannot move. I struggle to enjoy the beauty of this place because I am consumed by thoughts of tumbling down out of control. I begin self-coaching. "You can do this Nicole, overcome!" And yet, I hold my place just a little longer.

A blank page is before me. A stack of writing "how-to" books sit on my coffee table encouraging me and overwhelming me all at the same time. Doubts creep into my head, but I push them aside to open the first pages of each book. I begin scanning to see what they have to offer and to remind myself why I felt it was necessary to click "purchase" on Amazon.com. I am again encouraged and overwhelmed. I am also exhilirated at the thought of contributing to the world in a bigger way, yet fearful of the impending rejection that comes with such an endeavor.

Controlling ones creative destiny, daring to hope and dream for more, is a gift we've all been given and advice I dispense to friends when they are daring to make a change in their lives. Advice I wholeheartedly believe in but usually find hard to follow when it is connected to my own life. But, I now have a new sense of determination. I will overcome my worst-critic and begin to write. A new year is upon us, so here I go, I'm pushing on my ski poles down the slope of the unknown...wish me luck!